Before the morning

There are some moments in life that nothing can really prepare you for. Some phone calls that come so unexpectedly and can knock the wind out of you so fast, changing everything in your life in an instant. 

A couple of weeks ago my sister and her husband received a call like this. My Brother in Laws mother, Kay, unexpectedly, without warning passed away. She was family to us and my heart is heavy for those that loved her and those that now miss her.
 
Silent tears flowed as I stood in my kitchen holding the phone looking at the 'thank you' chocolates I had for her that had not yet been delivered. Tears at the realisation that it was too late. Not forever I know. But too late for now. Tears for my brother in law and his siblings. Tears for her husband. Tears for my sister and her sons. Tears for all the unsaid things, and unsaid goodbyes.

When heartbreak like this happens, isn't it true that we resolve to ourselves we are going to make things 'different' from now on. Live life to the fullest, no regrets. Savor every moment. Not waste time on unimportant things because we just never know when this part of the journey could end. But then life keeps moving like a wheel in motion and we, I, slip back into the flow of it. I forget for a while that life is precious and can be taken away at any moment. Sometimes I let things that don't matter, matter.

This time, I'm hoping to hang on to this 'realisation of life' a bit longer and really make things count. 

These words appropriately filled my car that afternoon as I drove home from seeing the 'children' who had just lost their mother..........

"It is but a small moment and this time on earth will pass and we will once again be reunited with those we love that have passed before us"

To my sister and her family. My family. We love you and we pray for you.