Blink

In an attempt to organise my life more fully, I have been doing the time consuming task of sorting photos from the last couple of years (there are a lot of them!) In doing so, I came across this photo that stopped me in my tracks (and melted my heart, just a little). 

When I look at this picture, I am so grateful that I have this brief snapshot of this moment shared with my girls. 

I look back and I yearn for that chubby baby lying so still in bed next to me. And it was only 2 years ago! Can you imagine how it must feel when it's been even longer? When there are no little people around?

I often hear older, more experienced mothers say, 'One day you will look back on this time and miss it. Desperately! Even the terrible twos. It's hard to remember what they're like when they're little'! When I hear remarks like this, I think, 'I won't forget these days'. How could I? And Chad has expressed similar sentiments!

But just last week we were watching family videos of Rylan and Zahn when they were young and I could hardly remember those little boys that filled my life with such joy! I wanted so desperately to reach into that screen in front of me and lift those precious babies out into my present world and hold onto them as tightly as I could! To kiss their faces and chase them up the hallway. Just one more time.

But that time is gone. 

And just like that nostalgic song says, "It happened in a blink".

How I am trying to savor and record the things that happen around me. The things that melt my heart and send my spirit souring as I raise these children of mine. Little ones that will spend the majority of their lives as adults. And here I am with the privilege of spending these few short years of their childhood with them.

“Normal day, let me be aware of the treasure that you are.”  Mary Jean Irion

Now If I can just figure out how to live presently all the time, It won't really matter if I don't remember every detail of every day. Because I will know that regardless of vivid memories or not. I was there. Really there. Living with my babies and showing them that above all else, they are what mattered to me.